Good morning, everyone. *smile*. On this occasion, I'm going to share my wonderful experience. You must always hear a quotation, "regret always comes late", musn't you? Of course regret comes late. If it doesn't, then people won't make mistake. Yeah, I'm going to talk about regret.
The hugest regret hole in my heart just happened these days. I dont know if I can say it bluntly here cuz I'm afraid some people will 'recognize' the characters, so I'll just make it straight.
Okay some weeks or months ago, (dont know for sure) was supposed to be the happiest time to me. Well, at least, if I had been aware earlier and had relized that the flying butterfly inside my stomach was a sign that I was falling in love, I wouldn't have got an irritating regret now. He was very kind to me, and we were very close. My friends also started to say that we were nice couple. I felt a little shy inside my heart but I always tried to ignore and deny it. It was like.. a matter of prestige. My postition made me cant expect another thing.[ huft.. I wish I could tell more about this story, but if I did, I would just screw up everything].
Then everything changed. "Something" made my relationship with him just.. hmm, faded away. but I didnt feel hurt at all at that time. not at all. at least not until...
Some days ago, I got a bad news. A really bad news that almost ruins my world. *lebay*. My friend told me that he was close with a girl and they almost dated. Suddenly that feeling came. A feeling that was hard to describe, depict, or define. Reflectly I held my chest and I felt my heart beated faster. What is it? What's happening to me? Then I realized that it was a pain..
The pain then transformed. Transformed into something that lasts until now. Regret. Sometimes I like to laugh at myself. What a foolish I am. Moreover after I know that he 'liked' me, too. But that was my fault for pushing the feeling away. And now I promise that I will never look back to my past and I will move on. I just have to be more honest to myself. And the result is, I can now accept the truth no matter how smarting it is!
So, what can we take from my story?? Hmm maybe it's more like an personal experience. I'm sure that some of you ever experienced this, too. What did you feel? And what did you do? Were you like me, just let everything flow by itself?? Or you chose to chase your love?? Everybody has different way of overcoming ther problems. But sometimes there are a particular problems that can be avoided since the beginning. This is one of them. "Regret".
The hugest regret hole in my heart just happened these days. I dont know if I can say it bluntly here cuz I'm afraid some people will 'recognize' the characters, so I'll just make it straight.
Okay some weeks or months ago, (dont know for sure) was supposed to be the happiest time to me. Well, at least, if I had been aware earlier and had relized that the flying butterfly inside my stomach was a sign that I was falling in love, I wouldn't have got an irritating regret now. He was very kind to me, and we were very close. My friends also started to say that we were nice couple. I felt a little shy inside my heart but I always tried to ignore and deny it. It was like.. a matter of prestige. My postition made me cant expect another thing.[ huft.. I wish I could tell more about this story, but if I did, I would just screw up everything].
Then everything changed. "Something" made my relationship with him just.. hmm, faded away. but I didnt feel hurt at all at that time. not at all. at least not until...
Some days ago, I got a bad news. A really bad news that almost ruins my world. *lebay*. My friend told me that he was close with a girl and they almost dated. Suddenly that feeling came. A feeling that was hard to describe, depict, or define. Reflectly I held my chest and I felt my heart beated faster. What is it? What's happening to me? Then I realized that it was a pain..
The pain then transformed. Transformed into something that lasts until now. Regret. Sometimes I like to laugh at myself. What a foolish I am. Moreover after I know that he 'liked' me, too. But that was my fault for pushing the feeling away. And now I promise that I will never look back to my past and I will move on. I just have to be more honest to myself. And the result is, I can now accept the truth no matter how smarting it is!
So, what can we take from my story?? Hmm maybe it's more like an personal experience. I'm sure that some of you ever experienced this, too. What did you feel? And what did you do? Were you like me, just let everything flow by itself?? Or you chose to chase your love?? Everybody has different way of overcoming ther problems. But sometimes there are a particular problems that can be avoided since the beginning. This is one of them. "Regret".
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